November 2011
87 posts
I'm done with UCs.
I’ve clenched my teeth for the past 5 hours.
This isn’t as great as everyone says.
Now I have to race rejection. And the possibilities I didn’t apply to the right schools.
I'm freaking out. That apply button is so close.
Those “what ifs” are going 5784390 miles an hour.
30 more words. 30 more words.
This was a bad idea to wait so long.
My editing gets progressively worse the later it gets.
I still have 185 words to cut out.
fml.
I don’t want to go to Santa Cruz but if Irvine and SB reject me I want a back up. But what if they reject me because they know Santa Cruz will take me. I’ll go to Merced.
Maybe I should apply to Davis. But I dont think I really want to.
Then maybe a “this would be really cool if I got in school”
SECOND THOUGHTS.
Is anyone else scared that if they keep their laptop on their lap that the radiation will kill their eggs and they won’t ever be able to have babies. Not that it keeps me awake at night. My laptop sits far away.
hfsjahfjaksgf. I’m starting over my second statement. Its fluff and bs. I don’t know what to write they say make it personal but what does that mean. How do I cram personal into 350 words? I could write about my grandpa and start crying but that feels so sappy and I honesty don’t know how much it impacted me. I have little topic sentences but they are all to ehhh. I’m not...
Will someone read my personal statement?
Brenda has been helping me. I don’t want to burden her.
Winterball
I was really excited to go this year. It was going to be a group of girls, but they have boyfriends and that’s fine so we can at least have a leadership group. Nothing would make me happier than spending the night with the people I love most. I didn’t fit in the group I went with last year and I wanted to enjoy my Senior Year one. Then something happened and the entire group was broken...
I had homework to do over break.
Oh well.
College conversations with my parents are always...
Just kidding they are horrible.
I'm watching cat videos.
Why. What am I doing to myself.
Woke up early to go to work
Had to end 45 minutes early because a kid pooped in the pool
sanitized the pool. Watched them dump 8 gallons of chlorine in. 8 gallons. I know you are supposed to shock the water but that’s a lot.
Took a shower because my skin hurt. You have to spend a considerable amount of time in chlorinated water to really know what it feels like to have your skin hurt....
I think I'll shorten my personal statement = added...
why am I so bad at this.
Chick flicks make me feel the same way as...
Great while you are eating and then you feel crappy after.
Black Friday
Brenda said she would go with me. Text other people to see if they want to come. 1 no reply. 5 no replies. I feel so loved.
I JUST WANT TO BE AMONGST A SWARM OF MOTHERS.
Happy Thanksgiving
Spent time with family. Ate a little more than usual. Watched New Moon.
It really was a good day. Talked to relatives and heard stories. They stalked a lot about politics. I have opinions but sometimes I don’t have thorough reason and if I say something one of my uncles will probably say something snappy. I played poker. Gambled away my college fund. The first round I was holding 4 aces....
Poker game going on in the room over.
The rule is if you have a job you can play. $10 buy in. My uncles are ruthless.
Conspiracy theories, books, bong jokes, politics, and childhood stories. Jorgensen thanksgiving.
“DON’T HATE US CAUSE YOU AIN’T US”
– Su-Lin is my hero.
Don’t hate on leadership.
How I intend to pick up guys:
Knock something over, pick it up with my feet so he will be impressed.
Start conversation. Walk away mid sentence. Come back later.
Show them my cat drawings.
Show them pictures of my favorite cats.
Start dancing.
Throw something at them so they will be impressed by my good aim.
The talking muffin joke.
Start singing “At Last I See the Light” and see if they join in.
...
Picture Uploading
Is horrible.
My computer is slow and there are 854793208329 pictures.
I hate everything.
I just want to sleep and wake up tomorrow to go to the canned food drive.
Side Notes
Worked this morning.
Went to Jamba Juice for lunch.
Went back to work for a “staff meeting”. They handed out a giant packet and a little less than 3 hours in and we weren’t half way through. They kept going over the same thing and side stories and things that everyone already knew. I had to leave for TSO and I wasn’t missing it because I needed to know the time card...
Trans. Siberian. Orchestra.
ohmygod. So beautiful.
I love going to that show. The lights and the songs and the hair waving. Its something I love to do every year. I rock hard to the christmas songs.
Leadership Turkey Bowl
Team white verses team black.
Plenty of racism jokes. White Power. Black Power. That kind of stuff.
So much fun. I yelled a lot. Its kind of embarrassing how much I got into it.
Brandy kept attacking and violating everyones personal space. No big deal.
We played tackled. Everyone got bumped, scraped, or bruised. I got bled on. I don’t know whose blood it was.
Khush made some of the...
Dressed warm.
Canned food drive. The school really pulled through.
So many cans. I hurt myself.
Thank god for the wrestling team.
Lazy lazy lazy night.
Considered what it would be like if I were to date someone.
Got scared by thought.
LEADERSHIP TURKEY BOWL TOMORROW.
That reminds me. I have to charge my camera.
I want an underwater camera.
I’m gonna kick so much butt.
Did the school thing. Nothing super special in my classes.
Actually. Emily. You might appreciate the photoshop I made with grandpa joe. I’ll show you later.
After school I wrote all my warm and fuzzies. Some of them aren’t all the nice. I just wrote things. And drew cats. All of them have cats.
Watched SNL and ate my feelings
Sorted basketball jerseys. There are like 102 extra...
phiripkim: you should seriously think about becoming a fish
bliu: in addition to philip’s comment, a mermaid would be most fitting.
Thanks guys. I wish I could be a fish and or mermaid. I’d be so cool.
I don’t want to call this a rant, because I’m not really angry, but a little overwhelmed. In a little over 2 weeks I spent around 24.5 hours in the pool. Thats just in the water. I work in about 3 hour increments and then a little over because tarping or changing the lane lines. The drive is about 20 minutes each way. I get there about 10 minutes early and I leave around 15 after....
